surrender

my God, please help me release all my fears so i may surrender to Your will without doubt or anxiety.

please bring me light so that i may see You in the darkness.

please give me love so i can wait patiently for Your word.

i know that You have plans for me, plans that are so grand that i wouldnt have thought of them alone for myself.  and because i cant see You in my clouded vision, please help me trust in my faith.

i struggled today, listening to voices that feed my concerns about finances.  and im weak because i know better, but i doubt my faith in You.

and this frightens me because i do not want to revert back to my old self that housed a false bravado.   i want to continue searching for the real me, and i know the real me lives in Your love.

and so, Father, i know You have already answered my prayer the first time in formed in my heart.  i ask You to please lead me to a place where i will work with amazing people who pray and laugh and hug and express their goodness and work collaboratively for the good of the students.

i believe that my anxiety is temporary, that You have already prepared a position for me, and all i must do is wait. 

in Jesus' name.

amen.