humbled

Father, thank You for the last three weeks.

thank You for giving my family time to spend together, for giving us continued health and safety, for giving us abundance of food, love, and resources.

i come before You with a heavy heart, Father.  thank You for bringing people into my path who will bring me one step closer to the one who You have chosen for me.

i need to be held and to touched, to make connections and to act with grace, to feel chemistry and passion and to not be afraid.

Blessed Mother, thank You for your nurture and for trusting in the Lord.  You are my inspiration and my model when i am asked to be of service and not willingly say yes immediately.

Holy Spirit, thank You for being with me this week as i get back into the daily grind of being a counselor, of being a mother, of being a woman.

and Jesus, i am so in love with You.  thank You for the sacrifice of love to make sure we live in light.

in Your name, i pray.

amen.

the Lord has come

joy to the world!

thank You, Father, for loving us so much to Him to us.

thank You, Blessed Mother, for carrying Him.

thank You, Joseph, for leading and protecting Him.

thank You, Holy Spirit, for coming after Him.

thank You, Jesus, for Your peace and Your sacrifice and Your light and Your mercy.

repeat the sounding joy,
repeat the sounding joy,
repeat, repeat, the sounding joy.


and wonders of His love,
and wonders of His love,
and wonders, and wonders, of His love.

presence, not presents

Father, thank You so much for Your love and light and abundance.

thank You for what You provide that i cannot even imagine asking for.

may i live my life in Your glory.  may my life be a prayer and a blessing to those who You bring into my presence.

i ask You, Father God, to please keep in the palm of Your hands my father, my brother, my son, my sister, and my mother.  please surround them with Your love and Your light so that they love fully.

please, Heavenly Father, ease the pain of loss of the family of those who You have called.  i am confused and so sad, which cannot compare to the grief those loved ones are facing and living.  please send Your angels to their aid, especially as they exist in inexplicable afflication and heartbreak.

Abba, my Father, my soul is Yours.

in Jesus' name.

amen.

humbled

Heavenly Father, i come before You to offer You my love and gratitude for the love You have given me and my son the past few months.

thank You for answering our prayers in a way that has shown us Your majesty and Your power.  thank You for never failing us, though we fail You.

i ask, Abba, that You please bring peace to my father and my brother as they struggle with abundance and the idea that Your silence means You arent listening.

i know that we are afraid, Father, because we lose sight of You and of the Holy Spirit and Jesus and the Blessed Mother in our lives.  i am so very guilty of that.  but i ask You to please have mercy on us, to forgive us because our sight is so limited when looking for Your glory, Lord.

please, Father, please help my father and my brother trust in Your wisdom and Divine knowledge so that their mental burdens are eased.  help them to believe in Your presence in their lives.  please, Father, please give them the wishes of their hearts if it is Your Divine will.

i pray that i somehow find inspiration and love again, that i allow love to come into my heart and not be so jaded and closed off.  i feel such a disconnect, Father, with my heart, and im afraid that i wont be able to feel love and hurt and joy and grace.

thank You for the past few months at work, and i am especially humbled by the abundance You have provided for me, abundance that no one else on earth can.  thank You for providing me with my needs and for allowing me to do this work and to enjoy it without being bitter.

in Jesus' name, i pray.

amen.

indescribable

thank You, Father, for Your love and guidance.

thank You for the darkness of last week, for showing me Your light and giving me Your peace.

i ask that You please heal the hurts that my family and i are suffering, that You bathe us in forgiveness and understanding of each other, that You prevent our egos and our pride from overshadowing our love.

i ask that You please continue to provide us all with abundance, especially my brother, my son, my father, and my mother.

i ask that i have abundance in order to help when i am asked. thank You for the opportunities that You and i create to bring about financial abundance. i ask that photography be a part of my life plan, that i document lives in order to enlighten the world of some wonderful lives.

thank You, dear Lord, for the cross i bear, and to You, Jesus, i thank You for walking with me and for helping me with my burdens. this new phase in my life is a bit confusing and frustrating, but that is only because of growing pains and of changes.
 
thank You, angels, for navigating these waters with me as i make my way to the shore where our Father waits for me patiently. protect us, Father, from danger and from illness and from temptation.

in Jesus' name, i pray. amen.

transforming

Heavenly Father, i drop to my knees before You as i find You in my heart.

i am ready now to co-create with you...to manifest big changes that will make me better of service to You, to Your people, to those You want me to meet.

i feel Your love and Your support and Your guidance within me, though i know there is more work to do.  i no longer walk afraid, knowing that You love me and that love is greater than anything i can understand.

and i dont want to understand.  i surrender to Your will, knowing that i have my will as well.  i respect that You will always want more for me, more than i could ever imagine.

and so i welcome what is to come, and i release that which has passed.

my heart is tender, Lord, as i let go of those in my life who no longer serve me.  i still love them all, Abba, love the good and the better of them, but it is now done.

i know this, especially in my career.  i do not want to return as a counselor, knowing that the risk i am about to take will be smiled upon by You.

Father, please pick me up when i stumble,. please give me strength when i want to stay down, please give me patience when i feel as if nothing is happening.

i place before you my deep desire to be a photojournalist, to be successful in bringing light to those lives and hearts who may be forgotten.

i want them to be seen, i want them to be admired, and i want those who see their faces and read their stories...i want those people to be amazed and humbled.

i am humbled by the love You have for me, and i dwell in that space.  i love it there, wherever i am, i love that You meet me when i am at the top of the mountain or in the valley.

and i ask You now to please bless my father, my mother, my sister, and my brother.  i ask You to hear their cries for You, even if they are unable to hear You with their ears.  always hold them in the palm of Your hands and pour Jesus' precious blood over their pain.

i ask You to please bless my family, the struggles they face, and please be with them when they feel alone.

i ask You to bless my friends, Father, and please give them the love they need.

Jesus and Raphael, thank You for Your healing grace, for giving me an abundance of wealth.

Mother, thank You for driving with me every morning on my way to work.

i love You all.

in Jesus' name.

surrender

my God, please help me release all my fears so i may surrender to Your will without doubt or anxiety.

please bring me light so that i may see You in the darkness.

please give me love so i can wait patiently for Your word.

i know that You have plans for me, plans that are so grand that i wouldnt have thought of them alone for myself.  and because i cant see You in my clouded vision, please help me trust in my faith.

i struggled today, listening to voices that feed my concerns about finances.  and im weak because i know better, but i doubt my faith in You.

and this frightens me because i do not want to revert back to my old self that housed a false bravado.   i want to continue searching for the real me, and i know the real me lives in Your love.

and so, Father, i know You have already answered my prayer the first time in formed in my heart.  i ask You to please lead me to a place where i will work with amazing people who pray and laugh and hug and express their goodness and work collaboratively for the good of the students.

i believe that my anxiety is temporary, that You have already prepared a position for me, and all i must do is wait. 

in Jesus' name.

amen.